According to my Doc...I managed to tear my Miniscus, partial tear of my ACL and ripped the main Tendon in the back of my knee. The good news is that the Tendon is still partially attached. YAY!! Its pretty gross...I can actually FEEL the spot that is ripped behind my knee....the part of the main tendon thats still attached is protruding & swollen, but the ripped part feels like a ball, all bunched up. YUCK!!!
My Dr. said I definately need Surgery. :(
Just waiting to hear from the Ortho Surgeon...and in the mean time will hafta go to PT for a lil rehab. Oh yeah...and he STRESSED that I am UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCE to do ANY kind of workout that incorporates my Quads, Hamstring or calves. WTF??? (It probably wasnt a good idea goin straight to the doc appt from the gym huh?)Especially since just 3 or 4 weeks ago the exact same Doc ordered me to do NO WORKOUTS especially cardio for 4-6 weeks. Yikes. Oh well..
Yeah...I did go and do my UBWO yesterday a.m.
Someone on my Tracker Biggest Loser team asked me how do I find the strength/motivation and WANT to go WO even when Im injured? Honestly I DONT. I just GO THRU THE MOTIONS to get myself there...then once Im at the gym..99% of the time something inside of me takes over & I push as hard as I can. Do I WANT to do this? Hellll noooooo...at least not right now--I'd LOVE to be able to sleep in late, lounge around the house, relax & eat as I please..
The reality of it--I CANT. So I wont! :)
Well I could...but if I chose that everyday..Id be super-fat, sad, miserable and probably headed back for another stint in the Cuckoo-Ward...
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Blakes Birthday!! (And Im a Big Ol' Crybaby!)
It was 4 days ago and the reality of my BABY being a "Legal Adult" still hasnt hit me!! Im walkin around kinda feeling like "How did he grow up so fast?" Time FLIES by!
Sunday I woke up soooo emotional. Its funny-the 10 years I worked at the jail I was completly UNEMOTIONAL....now EVERYTHING makes me weepy and actin like a baby. (At least its nice to know I recovered from all those years of feeling NOTHING)
Anyways...I was a mess that morning-when I went & picked up the Special Champagne Cake I ordered--it was NOT decorated how I ordered it. I. Was. Pissed! That poor girl workin at the bakery-I know she felt bad but DAMNNNNN how hard is it to decorate a friggin cake when thats WHAT YOU DO for a living? I guess what really pissed me off was that I paid $28.00 for this cake (WAY too much) but they are the only bakery in our whole area that does Champagne cakes. I was promised it would be really cute..the Baker wanted to decorate it in red & black trimming (His fave colors) & I made sure to tell her CONFETTI on it too. What I got was all white frosting with CURLING RIBBON (the kind you put on gifts) thrown over the top..and 9 (yes I counted them!) silver "bee-bees" as confetti. So that was the 1st thing that made me cry.
Then I cried becuz Chris wouldnt go run around/shopping w/me for Blakes BBQ becuz Nascar Race day was on.
Then I cried becuz Chris decided he was gunna STAY AT HOME and watch nascar instead of coming to my house for Blakes Bday. We almost had our 1st fight & broke up over this one!(He did show up...so its all good between us)
Then I cried becuz I'm OLD!!
Then I cried when the Clerk at the grocery store asked me what was all the BBQ food for (wahhhhh...mah baybees 18!) Poor guy-he was like : Its ok..my Mom cried last year when I turned 18 too! (Umm..yeah thanks..)
THAT made me cry AGAIN becuz Im old....
Then I cried when my SIL & brother were being dicks & chose their Next door neighbors kids Bday party instead of Blakes (Blake is their ONLY nephew & my SIL ALWAYS finds some reason to not show up for our family stuff-guess I should be used to it..but Im not. And the kid next door is 17..so its not like hes a lil kid that wouldnt understand)
Next..came the tears when I decorated the house.
Then when I picked Blake up from his best friends house & I gave him a hug & kiss & said Happy Birthday...
Then when he saw the decorations...and when we cut the cake....and when he saw his gift (A fully loaded Dell Laptop-he was so surprised!)
Then the really sad tears came when I took a pic with Blake & REALIZED how friggin HUGE I have gotten over the last 3 weeks. Seriously. I honestly said "Who is the fat chick with Blake?!" How fucked up is that?! Ummm...helllllooooooo its M-E!!! WHEN exactly did I grow a second stomach, and 2nd & THIRD CHIN?
Even after all the tears and the fact that REALITY kicked me in the teeth...it ended up being a great Birthday. Blake had fun....he loved his Laptop (and the 50 $1.00 Bills I gave him for the Strip club) & he really lit up when he saw the decorations hanging everywhere. I LOVE THAT BOY!!
Heres a few pics:
Each "swirl" had either a Lotto ticket or cash on the end-he loved it! (the pix of the rest of the house didnt come out good)
His "Not so cute" Cake
Making a Wish...
Eddie, Blake & Vince. (Do yall remember Vince? HES WALKING WITHOUT A CANE now!!YAY! A TRUE miracle after being shot just 1 yr ago)
Me & my 6'3" baby (Thank god for cropping--yall can only see how fat my FACE is) And yessss..thats a huge nasty hickey from ONE of his lil girlfriends hes sportin there. Ewwwwwww!
Sunday I woke up soooo emotional. Its funny-the 10 years I worked at the jail I was completly UNEMOTIONAL....now EVERYTHING makes me weepy and actin like a baby. (At least its nice to know I recovered from all those years of feeling NOTHING)
Anyways...I was a mess that morning-when I went & picked up the Special Champagne Cake I ordered--it was NOT decorated how I ordered it. I. Was. Pissed! That poor girl workin at the bakery-I know she felt bad but DAMNNNNN how hard is it to decorate a friggin cake when thats WHAT YOU DO for a living? I guess what really pissed me off was that I paid $28.00 for this cake (WAY too much) but they are the only bakery in our whole area that does Champagne cakes. I was promised it would be really cute..the Baker wanted to decorate it in red & black trimming (His fave colors) & I made sure to tell her CONFETTI on it too. What I got was all white frosting with CURLING RIBBON (the kind you put on gifts) thrown over the top..and 9 (yes I counted them!) silver "bee-bees" as confetti. So that was the 1st thing that made me cry.
Then I cried becuz Chris wouldnt go run around/shopping w/me for Blakes BBQ becuz Nascar Race day was on.
Then I cried becuz Chris decided he was gunna STAY AT HOME and watch nascar instead of coming to my house for Blakes Bday. We almost had our 1st fight & broke up over this one!(He did show up...so its all good between us)
Then I cried becuz I'm OLD!!
Then I cried when the Clerk at the grocery store asked me what was all the BBQ food for (wahhhhh...mah baybees 18!) Poor guy-he was like : Its ok..my Mom cried last year when I turned 18 too! (Umm..yeah thanks..)
THAT made me cry AGAIN becuz Im old....
Then I cried when my SIL & brother were being dicks & chose their Next door neighbors kids Bday party instead of Blakes (Blake is their ONLY nephew & my SIL ALWAYS finds some reason to not show up for our family stuff-guess I should be used to it..but Im not. And the kid next door is 17..so its not like hes a lil kid that wouldnt understand)
Next..came the tears when I decorated the house.
Then when I picked Blake up from his best friends house & I gave him a hug & kiss & said Happy Birthday...
Then when he saw the decorations...and when we cut the cake....and when he saw his gift (A fully loaded Dell Laptop-he was so surprised!)
Then the really sad tears came when I took a pic with Blake & REALIZED how friggin HUGE I have gotten over the last 3 weeks. Seriously. I honestly said "Who is the fat chick with Blake?!" How fucked up is that?! Ummm...helllllooooooo its M-E!!! WHEN exactly did I grow a second stomach, and 2nd & THIRD CHIN?
Even after all the tears and the fact that REALITY kicked me in the teeth...it ended up being a great Birthday. Blake had fun....he loved his Laptop (and the 50 $1.00 Bills I gave him for the Strip club) & he really lit up when he saw the decorations hanging everywhere. I LOVE THAT BOY!!
Heres a few pics:
Each "swirl" had either a Lotto ticket or cash on the end-he loved it! (the pix of the rest of the house didnt come out good)
His "Not so cute" Cake
Making a Wish...
Eddie, Blake & Vince. (Do yall remember Vince? HES WALKING WITHOUT A CANE now!!YAY! A TRUE miracle after being shot just 1 yr ago)
Me & my 6'3" baby (Thank god for cropping--yall can only see how fat my FACE is) And yessss..thats a huge nasty hickey from ONE of his lil girlfriends hes sportin there. Ewwwwwww!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
For Udenia
These are from July, but they are some of my favorite pics of me N My Honey:
DAYTONA International Speedway
DAYTONA International Speedway
Time To Catch Up....
Where do I start?? I've been so crazy-busy..I swear sometimes I don't know if I'm coming or going--it's all one big blur!!
First things first--
TODAY MY BABY IS 18!!!!
(That right there deserves its OWN Post....which will be after this one :)
Heres the scoop on everything else:
Valentines Day #1: THANKS EVERYONE for all the comments about my Val day plans--yall are so sweet! It ended up being a really nice evening, but not exactly as planned :(
The good part was that Chris LOVED the massage! He was raving about it all night....Its so much fun when someone REALLY enjoys a gift ya know? My massage--it was OK. Not good. Not bad. The girl wasnt very confident in her strokes or touch & it made it hard for me to relax, (I hafta admit--when it comes to Massage...I'm definately a "Massage Snob". After 1.5 YEARS of Massage Therapy School I think it just happens.) I did get pissed off though becuz we did NOT get the snacks/treats that were part of the package, the Therapists were 10 min late (we were on a super-tight time schedule already) & they over charged me. It was only $5.00....and I didnt say anything becuz Chris was standing right next to me .(Didnt wanna make a scene when it was a "gift" ya know?) I still havent called the Owner--but I think I might. I dont mind spending $$, but I hate when I dont get what I pay for....
Right before dinner Chris surprized me with a VS purse, filled with a big bottle of my fave perfume & lotion--hes a sweetheart.
Dinner was yummy.
Didnt take ANY pix :(
Have you ever realized that when you put on a certain outfit, its not really how you LOOK IN IT that is important...its how you FEEL YOU LOOK IN IT that matters?? When I put on my cute dress & sexy shoes...I didnt FEEL hot in it. I actually felt VERY uncomfortable & awkward. I really wish I would have just wore jeans,my high heel boots and a cute sweater or top--thats what I feel sexy in :) (So...thats why I didnt take any pix)
Valentines Day #2: The "Other Man" in my life (BLAKE!) surprized me with a dozen red roses at work. :) I love that boy to death. Even after all the shit he has put me thru over the last few years--I KNOW I did something right becuz HE LOVES HIS MOMMA!! :)
That night Chris made me dinner, we snuggled on the couch watchin the NASCAR Race. It was PERFECT! We both laughed about how much more fun it was then gettin dressed up & goin out the night before. (Damn...I must be gettin old!)
On the Fitness Front: Nothing good to comment on. Struggling. Missed workouts. Eating crappy. Trying to Get My Shit Together. Its still really hard after being so completely disciplined for a year....Im kinda goin in circles. Its all about my mind right now--its just not in it....and when your minds not there-NOTHING you do will be effective.
Im workin on it though. I've been going thru boxes, pulling out old issues of Muscle Media (I Miss that magazine), pulling out old BFL Journals and I MUST get back into THE SECRET!!
Its all about gettin the mindset back!!
WHERE THE MIND GOES.....THE BODY WILL FOLLOW!!!
Sorry...Im so scattered thruout this post...thats just how my mind has been lately. Theres so many things I want to write about but Im kinda "foggy" right now...I'll be back! Later Gator!
First things first--
TODAY MY BABY IS 18!!!!
(That right there deserves its OWN Post....which will be after this one :)
Heres the scoop on everything else:
Valentines Day #1: THANKS EVERYONE for all the comments about my Val day plans--yall are so sweet! It ended up being a really nice evening, but not exactly as planned :(
The good part was that Chris LOVED the massage! He was raving about it all night....Its so much fun when someone REALLY enjoys a gift ya know? My massage--it was OK. Not good. Not bad. The girl wasnt very confident in her strokes or touch & it made it hard for me to relax, (I hafta admit--when it comes to Massage...I'm definately a "Massage Snob". After 1.5 YEARS of Massage Therapy School I think it just happens.) I did get pissed off though becuz we did NOT get the snacks/treats that were part of the package, the Therapists were 10 min late (we were on a super-tight time schedule already) & they over charged me. It was only $5.00....and I didnt say anything becuz Chris was standing right next to me .(Didnt wanna make a scene when it was a "gift" ya know?) I still havent called the Owner--but I think I might. I dont mind spending $$, but I hate when I dont get what I pay for....
Right before dinner Chris surprized me with a VS purse, filled with a big bottle of my fave perfume & lotion--hes a sweetheart.
Dinner was yummy.
Didnt take ANY pix :(
Have you ever realized that when you put on a certain outfit, its not really how you LOOK IN IT that is important...its how you FEEL YOU LOOK IN IT that matters?? When I put on my cute dress & sexy shoes...I didnt FEEL hot in it. I actually felt VERY uncomfortable & awkward. I really wish I would have just wore jeans,my high heel boots and a cute sweater or top--thats what I feel sexy in :) (So...thats why I didnt take any pix)
Valentines Day #2: The "Other Man" in my life (BLAKE!) surprized me with a dozen red roses at work. :) I love that boy to death. Even after all the shit he has put me thru over the last few years--I KNOW I did something right becuz HE LOVES HIS MOMMA!! :)
That night Chris made me dinner, we snuggled on the couch watchin the NASCAR Race. It was PERFECT! We both laughed about how much more fun it was then gettin dressed up & goin out the night before. (Damn...I must be gettin old!)
On the Fitness Front: Nothing good to comment on. Struggling. Missed workouts. Eating crappy. Trying to Get My Shit Together. Its still really hard after being so completely disciplined for a year....Im kinda goin in circles. Its all about my mind right now--its just not in it....and when your minds not there-NOTHING you do will be effective.
Im workin on it though. I've been going thru boxes, pulling out old issues of Muscle Media (I Miss that magazine), pulling out old BFL Journals and I MUST get back into THE SECRET!!
Its all about gettin the mindset back!!
WHERE THE MIND GOES.....THE BODY WILL FOLLOW!!!
Sorry...Im so scattered thruout this post...thats just how my mind has been lately. Theres so many things I want to write about but Im kinda "foggy" right now...I'll be back! Later Gator!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Its VALENTINES DAY! (Well...kinda)
I know that tomarrow is the "official" day, but since we couldnt get reservations at our "1st Date" Restaraunt for the 14th, Chris & I decided to celebrate TODAY instead!
I'm pretty excited & it's just what I needed to bring me out of my funk. :)
So heres the plan:
I'm surprizing Chris this afternoon--I booked a Couples Massage for us at this adorable lil Day Spa here in Old Downtown. Its such a beautiful, cozy place...Its an old Victorian home that has been completly remodeled into a spa. They are gunna spoil us with Chocolates, cheese, crackers , wine and desserts for 1/2 an hour before our Massages. Niiiiice!!!!! Im sooo ready for a massage! Chris has never had one so I hope hes pleasantly surprised. Hes so cute-all I would tell him is : "When you get home..Take a shower & be ready to go somewhere by 3:30" So..hes CONVINCED that I've scheduled him a mani/pedi appt...and hes all nervous about it! hehehe
After the massage, hes taking me to the Buckhorn for dinner. We havent been back there since our First Date...awhhh...its gunna be so Romantic! (I hope! hehe) Actually, ANYWHERE we go together is romantic. :)
Yesterday he took me shopping & bought me a really cute dress & I found some hot sexy high heels to go with it. I NEVER wear dresses, but....Im Gunna do my best to look HOTT for my Baby tonight! (Hes so used to seein me in sweats, jeans & boots...hes not gunna know who I am.)
Hmmm....sounds like a lil ROLE PLAYIN is in order!! TMI TMI I know!
I'm pretty excited & it's just what I needed to bring me out of my funk. :)
So heres the plan:
I'm surprizing Chris this afternoon--I booked a Couples Massage for us at this adorable lil Day Spa here in Old Downtown. Its such a beautiful, cozy place...Its an old Victorian home that has been completly remodeled into a spa. They are gunna spoil us with Chocolates, cheese, crackers , wine and desserts for 1/2 an hour before our Massages. Niiiiice!!!!! Im sooo ready for a massage! Chris has never had one so I hope hes pleasantly surprised. Hes so cute-all I would tell him is : "When you get home..Take a shower & be ready to go somewhere by 3:30" So..hes CONVINCED that I've scheduled him a mani/pedi appt...and hes all nervous about it! hehehe
After the massage, hes taking me to the Buckhorn for dinner. We havent been back there since our First Date...awhhh...its gunna be so Romantic! (I hope! hehe) Actually, ANYWHERE we go together is romantic. :)
Yesterday he took me shopping & bought me a really cute dress & I found some hot sexy high heels to go with it. I NEVER wear dresses, but....Im Gunna do my best to look HOTT for my Baby tonight! (Hes so used to seein me in sweats, jeans & boots...hes not gunna know who I am.)
Hmmm....sounds like a lil ROLE PLAYIN is in order!! TMI TMI I know!
Thank you!
Thank you Everyone for all the Hugs & love during the last couple of days. It means soooo much to me! I love yall...Dont know what I would do if I didnt have all of my "BFL-Sisters". Yall are the BEST!!
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